Thursday, September 15, 2011

Yes...I am still around...


That is the only word to describe me the last 9 months of my life. Especially when it comes to this blog. I have THOUGHT about updating it plenty of times and honestly am very sad I haven't. In my mind I know why I haven't and it is a ridiculous and self conscious reason but I am trying to turn a new leaf and realized I want to use this blog as my journal for my own personal memories, whether anyone else reads it or not. I was too worried about being judged for letting myself go back to old habits. Mostly I am ashamed that I have gained weight, while some people may think this is ridiculous this is my truth. I am embarrassed and I completely secluded myself from the world as much as I could. I cringed when I saw people I know in public, I turned down lots of invites, I stopped using my camera as much, I stopped uploading pictures on Facebook and kind of went into a dark place. One morning I woke up and decided that I was letting my life pass me by and I can't do that to Colton and myself. I then realized that although I am not necessarily happy at this moment I cant let it hold me back and that it doesn't matter what I do with Colton we have FUN and I need to remember all the funny funny things he says and does. Although I still cringe when I see people and still am embarrassed by my photo's of myself I am trying to accept myself all the while making positive changes.

My goal is to update this weekend, I have lots to write about. I will probably start with recent stuff then back track through the spring and summer. So I am making a promise to myself and the world wide web...

*I will update this blog

*I will keep it updated

*I will keep this blog honest (I hate nothing more than reading blogs that I feel are fake)

Bare with me as I will probably have a post overload for a little bit. Read as much or as little as you like. But for now let me give you a little preview of the fun we have had...


  1. The people that love you do not care what size you are...we love you for the person you are! Can not wait to read all your updates.

  2. Yay!!! I am so glad you are going to post again. I've missed reading your blog. I love ya Lindsey!!!

  3. Lindsey I love you! I truly love how honest & real you are!! I'm glad you are updating once again. I love hearing all the fun you & Colton have & see how much he changes!!! Hip hip hooray for updates & hip hip hooray for YOU being YOU!!!!!!! :)