Thursday, September 15, 2011

Yes...I am still around...

SLACKER!

That is the only word to describe me the last 9 months of my life. Especially when it comes to this blog. I have THOUGHT about updating it plenty of times and honestly am very sad I haven't. In my mind I know why I haven't and it is a ridiculous and self conscious reason but I am trying to turn a new leaf and realized I want to use this blog as my journal for my own personal memories, whether anyone else reads it or not. I was too worried about being judged for letting myself go back to old habits. Mostly I am ashamed that I have gained weight, while some people may think this is ridiculous this is my truth. I am embarrassed and I completely secluded myself from the world as much as I could. I cringed when I saw people I know in public, I turned down lots of invites, I stopped using my camera as much, I stopped uploading pictures on Facebook and kind of went into a dark place. One morning I woke up and decided that I was letting my life pass me by and I can't do that to Colton and myself. I then realized that although I am not necessarily happy at this moment I cant let it hold me back and that it doesn't matter what I do with Colton we have FUN and I need to remember all the funny funny things he says and does. Although I still cringe when I see people and still am embarrassed by my photo's of myself I am trying to accept myself all the while making positive changes.

My goal is to update this weekend, I have lots to write about. I will probably start with recent stuff then back track through the spring and summer. So I am making a promise to myself and the world wide web...


*I will update this blog

*I will keep it updated

*I will keep this blog honest (I hate nothing more than reading blogs that I feel are fake)



Bare with me as I will probably have a post overload for a little bit. Read as much or as little as you like. But for now let me give you a little preview of the fun we have had...


3 comments:

  1. The people that love you do not care what size you are...we love you for the person you are! Can not wait to read all your updates.

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  2. Yay!!! I am so glad you are going to post again. I've missed reading your blog. I love ya Lindsey!!!

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  3. Lindsey I love you! I truly love how honest & real you are!! I'm glad you are updating once again. I love hearing all the fun you & Colton have & see how much he changes!!! Hip hip hooray for updates & hip hip hooray for YOU being YOU!!!!!!! :)

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